1/14/2010

Yesterday was a rough day for me. I wanted to run in the morning but didn't get up in time. (I stayed up too late watching Biggest Loser) So I decided during the day that since yesterday was my swim day that I'd run after swimming. So I get in the pool and swam for about 25 minutes. I warmed up swam 200 yards then I'm supposed to keep a weekly training log for how far i swim in 10 minutes. So I swam 12 lengths of the pool in 10 minutes and when I finished I just felt lost. I really didn't know what to do next. I was very dis-heartened. I know that Tim has provided a training routine and I forgot to bring it with me. I just stood there in the pool staring at the water and really felt defeated. It was so much better when I had a distance to work for so I have to get used to some sort of training regimen. So I got out of the pool and sat in the whirlpool for a few minutes to try to relax and not stress so much. It didn't work. So I went home and made dinner and it was all I could do not to go to the cupboard and eat the whole box of cookies I have in there. I thought about running but decided to go to bed and get some rest.
I felt much better this morning. I got up early and went down to run on the treadmill but I had those same thoughts about not being able to do this. I ran for 15 minutes and stopped. got off the treadmill and watched TV for a couple minutes then thought 'what am I doing?' so I got back on the treadmill and ran/walked for another 15 minutes. I seem to be in a training rut. I know this is a mental thing and a couple days of sunshine I think would cure my ills. We're going to meet at LLS tonight and do an indoor group training ride. I look forward to it. It seems that I train much better with other people around. They push me to do better where I wouldn't necessarily do alone. It's interesting with this event. I'm definitely out of my comfort zone and really need to work harder to get to where I want and know I can be. Bring on that sun!